In the emotional message,Spears recounted her feelings of confusion and betrayal with her family,and said she still doesn’t understand why she was stripped of her autonomy.
“Literally,the extent of my madness was playing chase with paparazzi – which,still to this day,is one of the most fun things I ever did about being famous. So I don’t know what was so harmful about that.
“There were no drugs in my system,no alcohol,nothing. It was pure abuse ...[My family] made me feel like nothing. I went along with it because I was scared.”
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Revisiting much of what she said in court last year,Spears reflected on the limitations that were imposed on her career,health and personal affairs. She said she was made to work seven days a week,attend the gym constantly,have blood drawn,attend therapy and abstain from alcohol and cigarettes – noting “[even] people on death row can smoke cigarettes”.
“My performances[in Vegas],I know,were horrible,” she said. “I was just like a robot,honestly. I didn’t give a f--- anymore because I couldn’t go where I wanted to go. I couldn’t have the nannies I wanted to have. I couldn’t have cash. It was just demoralising.”